My office window is open and I’m watching the birds. So far, I’ve seen the yellow-rumped warbler, the pine warbler, the red-bellied woodpecker, and a brown thrasher.\u00a0 It just feels like spring out there. As I walked the dog, a wren sat at the top of the oak tree, just singing his heart out.<\/p>\n
So, why does my title refer to the blues?\u00a0 Partially because after two months free of hot flashes, I’ve woken up the past two nights feeling hot and uncomfortable.\u00a0 Nowhere near as bad as they were in the fall, but I was hoping they were over.\u00a0 I did fall asleep last night, but I’m just a little depressed this morning.\u00a0 I tried scrambling up on the weight watchers wagon yesterday but fell off pretty quickly and was crushed under the wheels, my mouth stuffed with cheese and chocolate.\u00a0 Now, I’m wearing my sister’s cast off denim capris because they are baggy and comfortable.<\/p>\n
But, there is good news.\u00a0 My dissertation proposal took about three hours and is essentially done.\u00a0 I’m going to give it another read through tomorrow before sending it to my advisor. And, my school district is working on getting volunteers.\u00a0 I also got most of the data entered for taxes.\u00a0 All that, and we spent a couple hours at our property in Charles City and I spent two hours playing recorders with two friends.\u00a0\u00a0 Finally, I took a long walk with the dogs.\u00a0 So, it was a productive day.<\/p>\n
Today is all about digital storytelling.\u00a0 I want to do a short introduction and then play with the software and my flip camera.\u00a0 Just putter a bit since the workshop isn’t until next week.\u00a0 I should also write the VITALNews, which takes about three hours.\u00a0 Actually, maybe I’ll wait until tonight while I’m watching election returns.<\/p>\n
I just feel tired despite sleeping pretty well.\u00a0 I’m still limping a bit from my back injury in February.\u00a0 Lately, I have just felt old.\u00a0 And, I’m depressed because I know what the answer is: exercise and eat right.\u00a0 My blood pressure would go down, I would lose a little weight, and so on.\u00a0 So, why is it so hard?\u00a0 Fruits, vegetables, some whole grains and dairy, and a little protein:\u00a0 I’m picturing what’s in my kitchen: carrots, V-8, high fiber bread, apples, bananas, yogurt, milk, a London Broil for dinner.\u00a0 All of that is completely legitimate and would be considered good food.\u00a0 Oh…add apple sauce to the list.\u00a0 I like all those things, they are generally easy to eat, so why when I get to the kitchen do I find myself reaching for the cheese or the chocolate?\u00a0 Even while part of my brain is screeching, “NO!”\u00a0 Maybe this isn’t about willpower.\u00a0 Maybe it’s about listening to the screeching voice, understanding that the panic comes from the sneaking suspicion that I will never figure this out.\u00a0 I just don’t want to be thinking about this for the rest of my life.\u00a0 Just one day. You can do it.\u00a0 Blessings.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
My office window is open and I’m watching the birds. So far, I’ve seen the yellow-rumped warbler, the pine warbler, the red-bellied woodpecker, and a brown thrasher.\u00a0 It just feels like spring out there. As I walked the dog, a wren sat at the top of the oak tree, just \u2026 Continue reading