Getting Into the Blogging Routine

So, here I sit, watching Ugly Betty online from last week and doing some organizing before I head out to the mountains. I actually had some free time to read weblogs yesterday, and I want to be part of the conversation. I need to make it part of the daily routine. Probably first thing. I don’t want to give up my morning pages–there is something about the long hand that starts the day. Plus, with the dog walking and the chickens, I’m doing that writing very early in the morning.

Part of the issue with this weblog, in particular, is the purpose. I have used it for lots of different things over the years; the important question is what do I need it for now? A place to let the world know that it is raining? That I love the view from my office window with the greenhouse and the pond and the chickens? Here’s the view:

My Backyard

Taken with my Pure Digital camera. I’m taking it with me to Lexington, Virginia, to take pictures of the Stonewall Jackson Memorial Cemetery.

Coming Back Into the World

I haven’t blogged anywhere for a long time. My time has been spent traveling and writing my candidacy paper and getting started on my literature review. I have been reading lots of good fiction just to feel like I have some kind of life, but mostly, when I get a minute, I write. I am trying to work on the project at least a little bit each day. I am at that point in the candidacy paper where I am sure it is crap. But I wouldn’t know how else to do it so that’s what I am turning in.

In class on Thursday, I talked about the writing fairy: I think I meant that little voice that points the way towards the final draft. Provides the metaphor or reveals the connections between ideas. I think I am going to call her Rhetorica, in honor of Richard Lanham, who was the only light in a pretty dark time of my life. My advisor recommended writing incantations. So, I googgled incantations and found a site with directions for writing your own. (Don’t you LOVE the internet??) They recommend being precise and concise with maybe a rhyme or two. So, what exactly do I want from Rhetorica? I want the words to flow; I want the connections to be clear; I want to write without struggle. Oh, and I want a metaphor to use to organize my lit review.

Rhetorica, rhetorica, touch me with your fire
Open my eyes, light my soul, keep me from the mire
Effortlessly, the words will flow
With clarity, the ideas will grow
With brilliance, the prose will glow

Hmm…not bad for a first try…

Making Mistakes

I once made a cake and instead of putting in sugar, I put in flour. I use a spell checker to be sure I don’t make spelling mistakes. And, I have 20 dogs in kennels in the back that I use for a dog fighting ring that I finance, and sometimes, when a dog doesn’t perform well, we kill it in cruel ways.

So, I’m willing to believe that the first two events–the recipe disaster and the spelling error–are indeed mistakes. I did not mean to do them, and if I had taken just a few minutes to slow down, I probably could have avoided them. But, I don’t believe that the last one–financing a dog fighting operation, something that is against the law in Virginia–counts as a mistake. Yet, that’s how many people are characterizing Michael Vick’s recent actions. I saw that one of his supporters had a sign that read, “Everyone makes mistakes.” If we take a pretty liberal definition of mistake as an “error of judgment,” then I suppose we could call it that. But, that’s being pretty nice.

Or. maybe the mistake was to declare your innocence for the past five months, stringing along the media and the justice system until your lawyers determined they just couldn’t get you off, even if you are a famous athlete. In that case, it’s a mistake of arrogance. Thinking you are above the law.

I just have a problem with calling it all a mistake. Makes it sound like we can just take out the pencil eraser and make it go away. This guy willfully broke the law and in a cruel, disgusting way. He should have to spend his jail time at an animal shelter, serving the very species that he felt he was so far above. Maybe a year or two of picking up poop will do some good for his conscience.

Birds

My husband and I are bird nerds…we love watching them, chasing them, picturing them. I read Ivan Doig’s Winter Brothers as I toured the Canadian Rockies this summer, and he talks about the importance of birds:

“I live in this suburb for its privacy, the way it empties itself during the workday–people evaporated off to office, school, supermarket–and delivers the valley to me and the birds and backyard cats. I suppose I could get by without the cats, or trade them for other interesting wanderers, maybe coyotes or foxes, but a birdless world, the air permanently fallow, is unthinkable. To be without birds would be to suffer a kind of color blindness, a glaucoma gauzing over one of the planet’s special brightnesses. Bushtits must bounce again out there on the thin ends of birch branches like monks riding bell ropes. A fretful nest-building robin–we always have one or two nattering in the trees at either end of the house–must gather and gather dry spears of grass until the beautiful bristles out like tomcat whiskers. Towhees, chickadees, flickers, juncoes. (All the creatures of this planet that do not know they have splendid names.) Occasional flashing hummingbirds; seasonal grosebeaks who arrive in the driveway and, masked like society burglars, munch on seeds amid the gravel. Besides Carol and the pulse of words across paper there exist few everyday necessaries in my life, but birds are among them” (p. 56).

We had a great time watching birds in Canada: an unusual woodpecker led to a clearing filled with cedar waxwings. Later, we found yellow warblers and gray jays. On our last day, we spent two or three hours following a family of common mergansers swimming and frolicking in the rapids on a river while an osprey with at least one chick cried from its test on a dead tree above the rushing water. Awesome birds…yet, clearly not what people come for. As we sat watching the waxwings in the clearing, a woman poked her head in the car window.

“What are you watching?” she asked politely. I explained that it was birds, and it was exciting because they were in their breeding plumage. The usually subdued Yellow-rumped warbler that we saw in the winter was YELLOW! In particular, his throat positively glowed. She smiled at me in that kind, caring way we save for imbeciles and walked back to her car. I could hear here say in a rather neutral but clearly disappointed tone, “It’s birds…in their breeding plumage.” The van pulled out quickly onto the road, leaving us to bird watch alone.

I would contend that while it is pretty awesome to glimpse a gray wolf in the wild, that is actually much easier and much luckier. You’re either there when the wolf wanders down the highway or you aren’t. And, if you see it, there is no question that it is a wolf. Birds, however, are neither lucky nor easy. I suppose there is some luck if you see something unusual, but the fact is that there are birds around all the time. You just need to stop and start looking. When we did it at the property, we immediately saw several unusual birds. Were we lucky? Sort of because these were birds that were passing through on their way to other places. But mostly we were patient. What about the challenge? Birds are not always readily identifiable…it takes some know how to look at the beak, the feet, any special marking on the head or feathers.

Here’s a great picture of a Clark’s Nutcracker in Jasper National Park at Edith Cavell Mountain.

nutcracker

Bring Back the Clothes Line

I did something today that is against the rules in many places in my community: I hung wet clothes on a line in my back yard. Now, I’m no saint; don’t get me wrong. My dryer is broken. But, it also happens that it broke at a time when my husband and I are looking for ways to reduce our carbon front print and just generally consume less, whether it be energy or bottled water or exotic produce. So, I’ll admit to feeling just a little self-righteous as I clipped my t-shirts and shorts to the line. (For modesty’s sake, I put my underwear on a rack in the kitchen.)

A visitor to the house looked at the sheets I had hanging out and said wistfully, “I really miss having a wash line. But we’re not allowed to in our neighborhood.” We cringed together over the silly rules and continued our walk through the garden. I didn’t think too much about it.

This morning, however, I had a much stronger thought about it. It seems arrogant that home owner’s associations, in the interest of some upper crust aesthetic that says that clothing on the line looks bad (maybe even poor since it means you can’t afford a dryer), force people to use energy in order to do something that could be done without consuming anything. I understand that using the dryer is a convenience; I’m certainly not prepared to give up my washing machine in favor of a ringer and tub. And, when my dryer gets fixed eventually, I’ll probably use it now and then.

But, at least I have the option. So, when I wake up on a Saturday morning and it’s a perfect laundry day–you know th one with its crisp sunshine and pleasant breeze–I can clip my sheets to the line. I do so with a certain satisfying simplicity. Sometimes, I draw an adirondak chair into the small courtyard and sit in the shadow of the laundry as it dries, its sweet clean smell joining grass and dirt. What I want to know is, when did hanging up laundry become a bad thing?

Guilty Pleasures

I am working on a project and have the TV going in the background. My favorite guilty pleasure is on: The Girls Next Door. It is sort of surreal to think that it is going on while I sit here and look out the window at my husband’s garden. Just feels strange somehow.

Music

I am trying to balance work and play as the summer begins. So, last night and this afternoon–it is Saturday, after all–I skipped working on the syllabuses and played with music instead. I couldn’t find all the Cat Stevens music I thought I had imported before I gave the CDs to my nephew. Turns it they all got imported, along with music by Be Bo Deluxe, Emerson, Lake, and Palmer, Elton John’s 11-17-07, and more. Oh, The Strawbs, too, which was Rick Wakeman’s band before Yes. I have been immersed in music: identifying track titles and albums. Some are easy…like the Cat Stevens. The Strawbs and Be Bop Deluxe were a little harder because the music was new to me when I digitized it. I used a combination of Google Music and Rhapsody to identify the songs. It does seem like a few are missing, but I’m sorting now. And, I can’t believe I didn’t digitize any Kate Bush or Don’t Shoot Me I’m Just the Piano Player by Elton John.

A bit later: Turns out a lot of this music is on my old iBook. Still running Classic and there in the iTunes folder was more music: Jethro Tull, Don’t Shoot Me, and lots of other stuff. I’m burning a CD and hope that transfer will be easy.

The next step is to figure out how I used to record music on that iBook. I’ve got my iGriffin dongle and it showed up in the Sound Control Panel. I have SoundEdit installed but when i tried to open it, it crashed. Hmm…I’ll wait until the CD is done and then see what else I’ve got. I seem to remember there might have been a problem with SoundEdit and the dongle.

Meanwhile, I dug out three Kate Bush albums (The Kick Inside, Hounds of Love, Never for Ever). I haven’t followed her…frankly, I haven’t really followed anyone except maybe Neil Young and Bob Dylan. Plus, I’m trying to keep up with new music! The amount of music out there is staggering. Right now, I’ve got 8.5 days of music in iTunes. And I’m about to import at least another day or two.

Free time is fun! I have projects to work on, but nothing so pressing that I have to give up weekend time. If it is rainy tomorrow, I’ll have great music to listen to as I work on writing syllabuses.

Getting Started On Summer

I spent the day at home. Oh joy! Took a 30-minute walk this morning, choosing to head down Lake Powell Road since it is shaded, and I got a late start at 8:30. The wet spot in the woods had water in it and a nice stand of spatterdock. It’s a testimony to the wet spring we had; now, we would like to see more rain in the forecast. Bob said the ground is moist when you dig a hole and he should know. He has spent the past three days planting the roses he got me for my birthday! I stayed inside, nursing a minor headache, doing some work on the computer and finishing the June newsletter. Read Barbara Kingsolver’s book about eating locally, Animal, Vegetable, Mineral, on and off, and am about ready to head to bed with it. Tomorrow is an out-of-the-house day with recorder rehearsal, errands, and a video gig at church in the evening.

Turning 45

I had a very mellow birthday. Woke late, poked around the garden for just a bit, read The Prince, played on the Internet, played the piano. I’m waiting for a draft to come back from my advisor so I can finish up the semester. So, I feel a little like I’m treading water.

My other projects–the three syllabi and Noter–are moving along. I spent most of the day yesterday setting up the server on my laptop and figuring out how to fix the issues with php 5. I think I solved them so now it’s a matter of re-coding some of the pages. I will eventually test it on 4 and 5.

Still trying to figure out food. I’ve been sick so I haven’t been exercising, and this is the time of night when I start making the trips to the kitchen for munchies. I am going to fight the urge tonight. And, I am going to fight the urge to work. I think I’ll just play some more on the computer while I watch An Affair to Remember.

I don’t have any major revelations. It just occurred to me that I should do a tarot reading so I’ll put that next on the list. I keep looking at the calendar as though there is some answer there. I have pockets of free time to work on my final draft and the reflection activity. So, just sit back and relax and enjoy getting older. I’ve had a good life so far and am discovering what it means to be happy and live in the moment. We ate dinner in the Adirondack chairs in the back yard. Very pleasant. Fresh lettuce, cucumbers and radishes from the garden.