Living in the Past

I had an amazingly productive day yesterday.  We finished the taxes!  That’s the biggie: this is the first year we are doing them ourselves after having accountants for many years.  I followed along closely last year and am using TurboTax and feel fairly confident about the whole thing.  We’re getting an extension so at some point, I’ll print the whole packet and review it against last year’s to see what different.  Here’s an interesting thing: we only got the standard deduction even though in the past we’ve itemized.  Just not enough medical stuff or mortgage interest on this old house to get us over the hump.  We could do more charities, although I think we give a lot for our income.

I made chicken legs General Tsao style and a potato herb frittata for dinner.  As a post-tax treat, I made baked tortilla chips in the convection oven.  They were very good and since I used spray, I think they were very low in calories.

I also got a lot of little things off my to do list in preparation for travel.  I decided to drive west tonight for a few hours so tomorrow morning is a bit more leisurely.  I was not looking forward to being on the road at 6 AM and 8 hours in the car.  I’ve got something else to do so I’ll stay over until Wednesday as well.  My bags are packed; I’m ready to go.

The main point of this post is to record a quote from Annie Dillard’s The Living, which I finished last week.  It has been raining here for three or four days and I feel like I’m in the Pacific Northwest without the views of Mount Rainier and Mount Baker hovering always on the horizon.  The novel focuses on the history of the Bellingham, Washington, area and follows the pioneer families through several generations.  It was superb, really, with startling metaphors woven into its sometimes spare historical narrative.

But, I’m giving it up.  Taking it to the Book Exchange with several others including the Carl Hiassen (Double Whammy) I finished this morning.  And there’s one quote I didn’t want to lose as it deals with change:

The women, low on the logs, had started up “long Ago, Sweet Long Ago,” and the men’s deep voices met their earnest sopranos boldly; they all love this song.  They sang in the dark, and looked at the fire.  They had seen younger faces, around other fires; they had sung beneath other skies, in other times, far away.  The tide was starting out, and the wet mud reflected the fire darkly, in only the yellows.

Each man and woman had seen the old ways lost in half a life time, and knew there never was a generation so pushed, spun, and accelerated by change as their own, and so nostalgic for a more innocent past, however fanciful.  It was their childhoods they mourned for, and the vanished times and places and people (pp. 357-358).

I was struck by the notion that these people, living in the late 19th century felt as we do today: spun out of control by the force of change around them.  In their lifetimes, they saw massive expansion of travel, from the wagons they drove across the frontier to get to Washington to the railroads, whose choices of towns for depots could make or break a community.  And, with that travel, came more accelerated communication.  Certainly nothing like what we have today, I know, but for them, taking several weeks off the delivery of a letter or being able to send a telegram must have seemed like quite a feat.

Yet, these people are mourning more than technologies, but the culture that developed around such technologies.  Wagon trains built community; railroads encouraged individualism.  “A more innocent past, however fanciful” captures that notion of looking back on something that never really existed, a memory that sustains you.

Killing Time With a Latte

I’m waiting for my husband so we can start the taxes.  Fixed myself a latte.  I love the ritual of it and the fact that it doesn’t cost $3.65 for a few espresso beans and some low fat milk.  And it comes in a reusable container.

I have come to love to cook. Years of watching Food TV, which was the only lifestyle type cable channel we got for awhile, has hones me into a cook. I understand some basic techniques and can substitute and modify to meet my needs. For instance, I have made this baked pasta casserole three times now and each time it has been different depending on the ingredients at hand. The commonality has been spinach, which is pouring out of my husband’s green house right now. But, once I added ground chicken to make a one-pot non-vegetarian meal, and this time I dropped the meat and added crimini mushrooms from our recent trip to Trader Joe’s and snow peas from the green house. I used a mixture of monterey jack and romano cheese and added some garlic and oregano. I’ve never used the same pasta or the even baked it. I just do it on the stove top the way she suggests in the comments. My husband loves it, and I think it will be a summer staple. It would be nice to have fresh mozarella on it.  Learning to make it and finding the ingredients is on my to do list.

Speaking of mushrooms, I’m supposed to be researching how to grow them. I think I know in theory: you buy a kit. Found a good article from Mother Earth News and am already thinking about putting some in the garden to naturalize. I love the philosophy of the article: one reason to grow things in your own garden is to get something really fresh and not pay outrageous prices. We could certainly do shitake mushrooms out at the property.  The article led me to Mushroom Adventures and they have kits. I think I’m going to get the half portobello, half button kit to get started.

Well, he’s ready so I’m going to click publish!  Here we come, TurboTax!

Morning Pages

I’m half way through my first cup of coffee.  I somehow volunteered to help at church this morning, and if I got my act together, I could go for the first service, but I don’t think that’s going to happen.  It’s still raining, although I can see a patch of bright light out there.  It doesn’t matter if it’s nice, though.  My husband finally got around to pulling together his tax numbers so I’ll be spending the afternoon with Turbo Tax.  We’ll file for an extension but at least we’ll know how much to send with it.

After making two pairs of socks, I’m not crocheting slippers from granny squares.  Still using up old worsted weight yarn.  It took me awhile to get the gauge right.  The pattern suggested an F hook to make a 4-1/2 inch square.  I’m up to an I!  They are very cute: a combo of white, green, and brown.  I’ll make the second one today, probably, while I’m watching the second part of Sense and Sensibility.

I also need to get some exercise today.  I’ve been eating OK (although I’m not sure how the sweet potato pie and low fat frozen yogurt fits in), but I need to do the second piece.  I took a bike ride on Friday and it felt good.  We’re lucky to have the Colonial Parkway just down the road so I am rewarded by great views of the river.  I also saw a cedar waxwing hanging out in a tree along our road.  If it clears up today, I’ll try to get another ride in, but it will probably be yoga.  I’ve got a new Gaiam DVD to try out.  I liked the “Energy Balancing” routine: mostly for when you’re feeling lousy and just need to be quiet for a bit.  the other one is a more typical workout.  I ordered two yoga bricks to try out as well.

So, with taxes, crocheting and exercise, I’ve got a full day ahead.  I wouldn’t mind finishing Carl Hiassen’s Double Whammy, either.  We are rushing to the climax: the bad guy has a dog head hanging from his arm and has just kidnapped the hero’s ex-wife.  Meanwhile, the hero is trying to figure out how to beat the murder rap for which he was set up.  It’s funny, but vaguely reminiscent of Nature Girl.  And, I just got a notice from Amazon that he’s got a new one out.  There’s also one more in my basket.  I think I’ll probably devote more time to Barack Obama’s autobiography next.  It’s on the Kindle and I’ve been reading bits and pieces when I’m waiting for meetings or stuck in hotel rooms.  So much to read, so little time.

And, there’s always a flash project to work on.  I think I’ll buy a license for royalty free clip art to use.  I did some rudimentay drawings in Flash itself and they looked pretty bad. I could always run the clip art through Comic Life for a nice effect.  I’ve at least worked out the flow of decisions.

The chickens are giving the back yard a real once over.  It’s wet and the worms are coming out.  We discovered that the silver spangled hamburg was laying eggs in a tucked away spot under the pump house lean to.  Found a good dozen or so.  Not sure how old they are, so we’re going to feed them to the dogs.  They’ll eat anything!

OK, coffee is gone and it’s time for a shower.  Many blessings to all for a wonderful day!

Saturday Morning

A grey day so I’m dressed in grey except for my green handmade socks!  I have a meeting and recorder rehearsal.  Then, the afternoon to play around with Flash.  We have a new non-profit client who might like some simple educational games, and I discovered that I have a copy of Macromedia Studio 8 on my shelf.  Cool!  I installed last night and ran it and was pleased that it seemed to go just fine with the new operating system on the Intel mac.  So, I’m going to try to make a Hanukkah activity in which you light each candle and learn about the prayers and what happens each night.

Meanwhile, I stumbled on this CNBC clip of an interview with John Cusack on his new movie, War, Inc.  Very good.  I think he articulates how I feel about the war: things are going on that we just can’t know about and some of that is the people who  are making huge profits while young Americans die.  Susan Jacoby, who wrote the recent book about dumb Americans, suggests that the problem with the war isn’t that we were lied to, it’s that we weren’t plugged in enough or we would have known.  I disagree and I don’t want to sound too conspiracy theory about this, but I think there are activities going on that, even if we read the paper everyday and are active in the world, are hidden from us.  Couple that with the arrogance of someone like Cheney whose response to the fact that Americans are increasingly against the war was “so?” and you are in a situation where just being knowledgeable isn’t enough.  It is time for protest.

Monday, Monday

My to-do list is short right now. Mostly errands like the bank and the post office where I’m going to mail the tea cozy to my friend. I’ve got a meeting on campus and two classes to teach. Then, things really open up. Maybe I’ll actually be able to finish Annie Dillard. The Living is good but thick with description and as slow as a rainy day in the Northwest. I remember feeling the same way about Snow Falling on Cedars by David Guterson.

I’m learning to crochet socks. Made a pair of green tube socks, which were easy, just continuous rows of scallops. Now I’m working on “basic” socks with heels, gussets, and toes. I finished one of a pair and have started the second one. Blue and white worsted weight yarn. I’m trying to use up the yarn I already own before buying more. They will be very cheery to wear, I think.

Sort of the same philosophy I have with books. Part of the reason I’m in a hurry to get through Dillard is so I can read The Tower by Derek Wilson as well as Sharon Kay Penman’s books about Wales and England. And then all those other ones in the basket. Let’s not talk about the books on the Kindle! I’m part of the way through Obama’s autobiography there. EEK! The crocheting has really eaten into reading time. But, I loved watching Sense and Sensibility last night and am already pining for next Sunday. It was a little frustrating to watch, though, since I already know the story. Pick Braddock, pick Braddock, you want to say to her.

Getting Back on the Wagon

I’ve been following Weight Watchers for almost three weeks now and doing pretty well.  But, yesterday, I really fell off the wagon.  I tracked my points, which included two pieces of See’s Candy and two glasses of wine and 8 pretzels even though I knew I was over the points already.  But, I went way over, eating into the weekly stash.  And, got a little indigestion as well, something I haven’t had since I started the program.  So, I’m aware of that and today will be pulling back.  I also need to drink more water today.

I am also starting to feel personal pressure to start exercising again.   Just can’t seem to find the time.  And, I’m not even ready to commit to a walk or bike ride today.  I’m trying to finish some work for a client so I can start my research next week without any worry.  Maybe I could at least think about a short yoga session.  I had been doing it pretty religiously until I hurt my back but my back hasn’t hurt for more than a month.  I get a few dog walks but they are short and very leisurely.

Trying to lose weight has always been a struggle for me.  I’m just generally pretty happy with myself and once I figured out that I wasn’t going to be a super model, working hard to be thin didn’t seem worth it.  But, now I’m working hard not to be thin but to be healthy and that’s the final goal.

Sweet, Sweet Honey

What a wonderful evening I had last night!  Out to dinner with friends then a Sweet Honey in the Rock concert at the Attucks Theater in Norfolk, Virginia.  I was swept away by their beautiful acapella singing.  Just amazing music, but what struck me the most was how much fun they were having.  At one point, one of them closed her eyes and just sang, and when she opened them, she seemed a little surprised that there was an audience watching.  I came home and downloaded their new CD from iTunes.  And, one of my friends is going to Ysaye Barnwell’s Building a Vocal Community at the Omega Institute this summer and encouraged me to go.  Hmmm…it’s a possibility although I am trying to save money for England.

Hey…it’s Robert Frost’s birthday!  I always use him as an example of fair use; how I would be listening to the Writer’s Almanac on my way to school and discover that it was Robert Frost’s birthday and wanted to read a poem so it was OK to make a copy for my classes.  Well, I didn’t know what a depressing life he led.  I have been to visit his gravesite.  Today, Keillor is reading “Neither Out Far Nor In Deep.”

I read my email before blogging and ended up at Civil Discourse to read about Jeremiah Wright.  The post quotes the Wikipedia entry on Wright and takes the time to present the full sermons from which the ugly soundbites were pulled.   And then I followed a few links.  Here’s Andrew Sullivan at the Atlantic who also provides context for the sermon.  That led me to Think on These Things, an Obama-leaning political blog.  I get it…I’m only listening/reading the people who agree with me, but they are also the ones who are providing the information not being covered in the media.

A Most Lovely Weekend

I read (The Living by Annie Dillard), crocheted, played on my computer, and even managed to get outside.  We spent a few hours at our property morris creekyesterday.  The view isn’t quite as green as the one in this post; it is still pretty barren, but signs of spring are everywhere.  The daffodils are doing great; we planted clumps of them along the driveway and they are naturalizing nicely.  I did a water test.  I’ve been testing for the Alliance for the Chesapeake Bay for ten years now.  Then, we just sat and watched the world: saw at least one eagle and one osprey.  We watched a cormorant circle his way down to the creek.  He landed and immediately started fishing so we rarely saw him again.

I was up early today.  It’s getting lighter earlier and the dogs wake up and start making dog noises around 6:30 or so.  Just caught sight of a big V of geese flying overhead.  I guess there are still some Canada Geese that actually migrate.  So, spring is here.

Now, I’m getting caught up on podcasts.  According to Garrison Keillor at The Writer’s Almanac, it’s Lawrence Ferlinghetti’s birthday.  I went to visit City Lights Bookstore when I was in San Francisco and bought a copy of Maxim Gorky’s great revolutionary novel, Mother.  It just seemed appropriate.  I love starting the day with poetry.

Now, I’m listening to Harry Shearer’s LeShow from KCRW, one of my favorite public broadcasting stations.  Thank goodness for the web so I can access the station.

My live frog for today is listening to some mp3 files so I may have to cut Harry short and get started.  I’m teaching today, too, and then meeting with my advisor to figure out the logistics of doing my research.  There may be grocery shopping as well.

After eating pretty well for several days in a row, I went a little crazy yesterday.  Although there isn’t much bad food in the house so crazy is relative.  I did have more than one serving of wine 😉  But I’m back on the WW wagon today.  I did get a nice walk at the property yesterday as my husband drops us at the beginning of the road into the neighborhood and we walk in.  Just about a mile.

Wildlife siting: there are two flickers sitting in the oak tree.  One looks like a fledgling with fluffy feathers.  It’s sort of amazing that I get anything done.  I also noticed that all the birdies need fed.  They particularly like the peanut butter suet we’ve been making.  That feeder is completely cleaned out!  I have a little left in the fridge and then need ingredients to make more, mostly peanut butter.

Blessing to all!

Easter Sunday 2008

And I’m not going to church.  Instead, I’m up early watching the sun rise.  As I walked with the dogs earlier, we stood a moment and looked at the almost full moon in the west, clear and bright in the sky.  I feel like I sometimes carry “church” with me, a sense of awe and gratitude for a life I did not create and that I cannot always control.  I send my wishes and dreams out to the universe, which often answers in surprising and wonderful ways.  I require little to make me happy: hot coffee after a cold morning walk, beautiful music to help the sun crest the pine trees  (this morning it’s Nick Drake who just popped out at me as I scanned iTunes), love of family and friends.  I see the poetry around me, and long to find the perfect metaphor, one that takes the breath away, one that captures the essence of what lives in y heart.  But, I am no poet and must be contented with these fragile words.

Happy Easter!

Morning Muse

My husband is heading out to do some volunteer work for a local agency that builds and repairs houses. So, we’re up early. It’s not even 8 AM and the dogs have been walked, chickens have been fed, and there’s a fresh pot of coffee brewing. I have a few things on my list of to dos but nothing pressing and a full week at home next week. So, it’s the weekend and the question is what do I WANT to do?

  • Play some music: I’m playing in a recorder trio so I have music to practice. Plus, I have other solo stuff. There’s always the piano as well.
  • Read some: I finished A Tree Grows in Brooklyn and picked up Annie Dillard’s The Living last night. Got through a few pages before it was time to go to sleep so would love to continue with that today. It’s set in northern Washington, and I’m reliving our visit to that still somewhat wild country.
  • Crochet: I’m currently making octagonal granny squares with some leftover red cotton yarn. Inspired by all the great craft sites out there, I took a picture of my two tea cozies (see below). The blue one is for a friend and includes a pad for the bottom. My next crochet project is to try making socks. I got a great book at the Michael’s near my hotel and have some variegated brown cotton yarn. The Sound of Music is on tonight, and I am looking forward to settling in and crocheting.
  • Work on my England map. My parents and I are going to England in October. They love to travel and are already in the midst of planning. After they called last night, I created a new Google map and started marking some of the places I want to visit including Stonehenge, Glastonbury, and Bath. The lake country is pretty far north, but nothing in England is very far away so we may be able to do it. I also want to go to Wales.

crocheted tea cozies

I was a good weight watcher yesterday and even saved up enough points for a glass of wine. I made this pasta from 101 Cookbooks using fresh spinach from the greenhouse. I also added ground chicken and did not bake it. Paired with big salads, this was a healthy, yummy dinner. And there are plenty of leftovers for lunch. I think tonight are baked tilapia fillets and Easter dinner will be pork loin and pineapple stuffing.